What the Bleep is Happening to Me?
A Soul Catching Experience
by Titanya Monique Dahlin
At every workshop,
almost everyone yearns to “see” the energies, the colors and the shapes that Donna Eden sees, through our own
eyes. It seems like the ultimate highest intuitive sense, doesn’t it? Well, don’t be too hurried for those things
for which you might not be prepared. Let me tell you of my own unexpected experience that happened to me, earlier
Eden’s daughter, I am one of those sensitive individuals that can walk into a room and get zapped by everyone’s
energy. I have always had difficulty holding hands in a healing circle or being inundated with people who want to hug
me. I find it hard to go to historical landmarks where war, plagues, injustices, etc., had taken place through time. And,
even though I do everything I have learned to prepare and protect myself, it is also hard for me to do energy work on anyone
without feeling drained or receiving some of their “stuff” after their healing.
Most of my life,
I didn't want to be in this field of work. Why? From an early age I saw my mother being ”laid up”
in bed after private sessions, talking on the phone with some ‘dear souls’ that were walking or feeling better
for the first time in many years. Of course she was so happy for them and not about to tell them that she now couldn’t
walk and was talking to them while lying in bed. I’d hear stories about clients with entities that would jump into my
mother’s body and séances that had to be performed to rid her of them. Strange experiences were common
in our household. I was always fascinated by the Occult and had the ability to see, feel, hear, and even smell
the nuances of the world unseen. I felt, heard, saw and talked with the elemental beings from an early age. I even saw colors
(auras) around people until the first day of preschool. (That’s another story!) I never thought twice
about this world. It was natural and normal to me. This was my childhood.
Despite growing up with the work as a natural third-generation healer and intuitive, I participated
as a student in the two-year Eden Energy Medicine Certification Program, and yet, I still felt that I did not learn how
to protect and ground myself while healing. It became all too clear with the experience that followed. My own experience has
made way for changes to the certification program with specialized attention toward protecting yourself when doing Energy
I was asked to be on faculty at the Certification Program and I was chosen to take the role of Soul Catcher.
A Soul Catcher’s job is to observe the energy shifts in the classrooms; see if the energies shift toward emergency
situations, and then, to catch those sensitive students that may spin out, due to the changes that occur. Spinning
out can represent anything from headaches to nausea to intense breakdowns. As a soul catcher, you are
the energy rescue angel and you help anyone in need.
Over the years, my
mother learned how to protect her own energy, because she had to and still give her personal, amazing healings. She
found her own way to protect and ground and the generic “white light shields” just weren’t going to cut
it! She began to teach others who wanted to learn this work… it started with Sandy Wand, her first
student, with one-on-one teachings. Classes followed and then grew into workshops which grew into a book and
then into the Certification Program.
So, here I was many years later, unexpectedly finding myself on
the faculty at the C.P. I was going to take my job seriously, so I dove right in! I was the only soul
catcher for the two large classes at C.P. each with hundreds of students. I did my job and rescued many in
need, but I did not realize that I was losing myself in the process. Sometimes, I had as many as three people simultaneously
who I was trying to help, and many of them were all very sensitive souls, like me. These were the ones who could pick
up any vibration, any shift of energy, anyone’s mood, electromagnetic in the room, environmental stress, etc. I knew
these sensitivities all too well. These unique individuals are the ones who will make the best healers when they know
how to correctly protect and ground themselves.
When the class
was over, I left the C.P. early and rushed immediately into a series of other jobs, which took me to Northern California and
England. It was so rushed; I had less than twenty-four hours at home then left to teach at the Tribal Bellydance Festival
in Sebastopol, California.
When I got home, something did not seem right in my energies, but I chalked it up to exhaustion and emotional
stress. Even, my partner, Jeff, told me that I looked more drained than he’d ever seen. My skin was pasty, dull and
lifeless (of course, nothing that a little makeup couldn't cover!). I was also experiencing terrible mood
swings, and Jeff was at a loss as to how to help. (I didn’t even know what to do for myself!) Slowly,
I was beginning to see that this wasn’t your average fatigue stress, yet I could not focus on what was “out of
sorts” in my being. I had no time, and I was “off”.
In the days that followed,
it seemed like I was in another space and time. I felt like I was getting the flu. I could not focus, I was tripping over
my own feet; being clumsy and bumping into things. I even fell a few times over my own feet, a far cry from my usual graceful
personality. I felt like I was on a real short swing, rocking to and fro, very fast and it wouldn’t
stop. I had relapsed into my childhood dyslexia and dyscalculia (difficulty with mathematical and number calculations),
more than I ever had before in my life. I developed seasonal allergies for the first time in my life, too…
coughing, sneezing and runny noses weren’t considered beautiful for a bellydancer ready to teach and perform.
My perception was off, I would reach for a glass on the table only to find it was inches away to the right or left of my grasp.
I felt unstable, uncoordinated and dropped things continuously. I had a foggy brain and would forget where I left something.
Yet, I was incredibly attuned to everything around me… good and bad. I also had a high sensitivity to anything
technological - TV’s, radio, computer, even the refrigerator! I couldn’t stand being in the same room when
they were on and I love the radio (music is my life). Jeff, my partner got yelled at unjustly more than
a few times when my mood was just plain “off”. I couldn’t go near the computer for months, so of course
my life backed up with e-mails I couldn't answer.
On the positive side, I was highly intuitive and then, while I was reveling in it…
all of a sudden to my surprise, I was seeing in between the worlds! That was intense! I would sit still and watch
beings of all sizes and even pets walk by, as if I was “sidewalk watching”, but it wasn’t in our materialistic
world. They were see-through and made of light. This was very freaky!
I felt like Alice down the Rabbit Hole.
Who are you?!!!”, said the hookah-smoking
Caterpillar. “Well, I know who I was this morning, but I’ve gone through several incarnations since then.”
Alice said to the Caterpillar. WHAT THE BLEEP WAS HAPPENING
while teaching my Bellydance classes, I could wear a mask to hide the fact that I was completely “out of it”.
No one knew how ungrounded and unstable felt. I was clearly not myself; I was a shell of myself. (But, the show
must go on, right?!) My class was packed and my dance performance came off without a hitch. Thank the Goddess!!!
In two days, I was leaving for England. I phoned my Mom and told her what
I was experiencing. She knew all to well, as my symptoms were similar to those from the
early days of her healing career. She did not want me to take the endlessly long flight or even be in an airplane. She
wanted to come and meet me ASAP and get “this thing” fixed. Since
I was in Northern California and about an hour away from one of our top Energy Medicine Practitioners, Beverly Davies,
I told her I would get myself to Beverly so she could fix me up until my Mom could see me. Mom agreed.
I should not have even been driving
with my impaired vision and ungrounded feeling - the drive to Napa was shaky, so I was extra careful on the road, which
was very hard under the circumstances. Beverly, though I didn’t know it at the time, was the perfect E.M.
practitioner to help me. One of her specialties is “Psychic Self-Defense” and she has created a complete
protocol. She helped me get grounded with some of her amazing techniques, then bandaged me up to get on the plane a few
|Titanya performing a sword dance to the crowd.
I flew to London,
thinking that everything was fine. I danced and had a E.M. workshop at the Body, Mind, Spirit festival. What I
didn’t know, as my Mom realized later, was that I didn’t have an aura ~ so everything could get into my energy
field. (Boy did it ever!) All the dark forces that London attracts from the present to its far distant history
came into my field.
Now, the Festival is like a Metaphysical
Mecca and attracts all sorts of characters. That was intense in itself with forlorn needy people wanting my attention,
but add London’s history of bloodshed and plagues and deceptive government history; I was picking up everything!
I also found myself invited to dance at a pagan event, which had strange individuals hanging around it too, that clung to
me and were hard to shake off.
Every night, I was taking the Underground for an hour to my friend’s home. Subways, buses and public
transportation have always thrown me “off” in the past, and here I was passing through the dark underground
streets of London at in a speeding steel machine full of people of every size, color, and some of the weirdest characters
you’ve ever seen.
I had a few unpleasant encounters on the
underground, and found myself being chased and verbally abused from some weirdo before hiding myself in a crowd.
When I walked from the underground in the dark to my friend's house, I couldn’t stay protected, no matter how
brave I acted… I felt like something or someone could just trickle past this courageous front.
After the festival, I needed to get away from London. “I got it,” I thought…”I’ll
go out to Cornwall, the country!” This has always been one of my favorite places in England. Well, instead of
being at one with the land and the elemental beings, I was a stone and couldn’t follow a map or my own instincts of
where to go. (If anyone knows me or has heard my mother tell the story when, as a baby, I got her out of a city
when she was lost. I couldn’t talk, but just pointed the way while she was crying.) I have an amazing
sense of direction and intuition in the land, in other words, a lot of magnetite! So with everything else, I ended up
crashing the rental car. I guess that I still hadn’t gotten back my perception while driving.
I finally got home to good old America! I was so happy to be home. Mom rushed up to
Big Bear and spent the next 5 days fixing me and getting me back to myself, while we prepared together for the advanced class
coming up. A few things came to light of why I was having such weird experiences. It was only then that Mom found
that I had lost my aura. What a concept! Because of this, I also used up my adrenals, so everything was coming into
my field. I was exhausted, depleted and now my back was beginning to hurt a lot (due to adrenal exhaustion).
Everything was locked up and holding onto everything that had happened since the C.P., I was a mess and could not release
These are some of the things that Mom did with me, she
teaches and covers the techniques in her books. My grounding to the Earth was very off, which made my balance and coordination
falter, so Mom did “The Suckability Technique” (for my grounding back to the earth) everyday, spooning,
held K-1 and stomach sedating. We did Large Intestine sedating to release all the stuck energy, the “Homolateral/CrossCrawl
Re-patterning” for the terrible dyslexia and foggy thinking, and “Triple Warmer/Spleen In-balance” and Kidney
sedating to get my adrenals back. Also, “The Crystal Aura Building” to strengthen my aura again.
Crystal Aura Building is where you take a crystal (a bigger crystal
is better in this case) and begin to strengthen your aura by spinning it around you. You begin close to your skin and
then slowly, push it out from there into your etheric field. I also began to do this, on my own, using my own hands
and then pat it like you were patting down sand at the beach, for strengthening.
Later, I shared this technique with one of my “Spin out people” (from C.P) as a solution to
her problem. She was “crystal sensitive” and my feeling is that she was part “Crystal life color”.
Sometimes, Crystal life colors will feel great using crystals on themselves, but their clients can “spin out".
Or, on the other hand, they themselves, can be too sensitive to that crystalline energy. They can’t even use the crystal
themselves… It’s almost like they have an allergy to themselves. That’s tough! When the client “spins
out”, it will be like being in a Crystal life color’s energy field, three times as powerful and everything that
it brings (See, Donna Eden’s Life Colors CD). After consulting my mother, I told her to use anything
in her field that she feels good with… a flower, another stone, a piece of empowering jewelry, etc.
So, after all of this, I am finally back together and I feel stronger and healthier than
ever. If this experience of mine has helped the certification program address and teach these issues of protection, centering
and grounding, then I am happy… but, I clearly do not want to go through it again! Keep yourself protected and
do your own self-care when you heal!
The World is
moving in an alarming rate and we are all feeling the shifts happening in our own lives. (I know that I am feeling
them full force. Are you?). The Universe is sending us surprising changes to our own comfortable existence so that
we must transform in order to move ahead. Things we’ve always counted on in our lives are falling apart…a divorce,
a child dies, and you lose a job, so that we can get stronger and meet the challenges ahead. We cannot stay in the world we’ve
known. The time is now. We need to be prepared and protected. Blow out! Hook up! And Zip up!